Today I’ve been the master of procrastination!! I’m delivering a training event for a company just after the Easter break and I had planned to work on this all day today so that I could make good headway in getting it started.
I had a couple of other things I needed to get done before I started so told myself that I’d do the other things until 10am and then I would start the event planning. 10am came and went and I still fuck arsed around doing little bits here and there. It wasn’t until about 3.30pm that I did start to focus on the event… was just getting my head in the right frame of mind and realised it was 4.45pm and I needed to get ready to go out as was meeting a friend for a book event at a local bookstore & I needed to change and make myself presentable.
Why do I do this? This is typical behaviour for me! So now it will be a weekend of working to try to catch up on what I should have done today and I know that my bad planning will cost me money as when I order things I’ll have to pay for fast delivery to ensure they arrive when I need them.
I will sit on this over the weekend to understand why I procrastinate/fuck arse around so much when I know I need to get stuff done and the stuff that I need to get done I can do really well. I know that come hell or high water I’ll deliver a fantastic event for the organisation, there is no question about that but I will put myself through hell to do this because of my fuck arsing around.
Anyway, as you might be able to tell I’m a little pissed off with myself for repeating these behaviours which don’t serve me well, something for sure I want to give up before I turn 45 and change a habit of a lifetime!!