Today was a uni day and felt a bit strange to be on campus on a Thursday, however, nice to be in with one of my colleagues who is also a good friend. I was in the office on my own as they were lecturing for most of the day so I cracked on with my lesson prep for my lecture tomorrow, and also I tidied my desk as it was getting a bit crazy with paperwork & files.
The Vice-Chancellor popped in to ask about the guest lecture they have agreed to do in a couple of weeks which is equal parts scary and exciting. They are the boss of the university and feel that it is great that they know who I am but also nerve-wracking at times in case I say the wrong thing. The world of academia is still relatively new to me and from what I’ve learnt/seen is that academia thinks very differently from business and I’m firmly in the business camp so it’s about being mindful about the different approaches.
Seeing a friend in the flesh and them asking if I am ok opened the flood gates to tears as I told them how I have been feeling over the last few days, it was lovely to physically speak to someone and felt like I had released some stuff I’d been holding in.
This evening, I caught up with another friend who literally lives 10 minutes away and usually see most weeks but it’s been nearly a month since we last saw each other so that felt good to see them again, a nice catch up over a glass of wine.
I know that I shouldn’t keep my emotions to myself and ask for support when I need it and I’m slowly learning to do this but it is a new way of thinking as for so many years I didn’t have trusted friends I could talk to openly without fear of judgement.