Last night I was all ready to head to the gym this morning, then this morning came and I just wasn’t feeling it, so cancelled my space.
However, I didn’t go back to bed, instead, I sat in my reading room and did some journaling, trying to figure out why my exercise mojo has disappeared.
I’ve always been quite an active person, played lots of sport at school, college and into adulthood, as well as enjoying going to the gym! Some 22 years ago, one evening I was bored at home and signed up for an evening class to do my level one fitness instructor qualification at the local college, after the first session I was totally hooked and over the following 2 years, I did all the courses required to become a fully qualified personal trainer (20 years ago, now that does make me feel old, as I can still vividly remember some of the courses I did). Once qualified, I switched careers and got a job in the fitness industry for around 4 years. Since then I’ve been a regular at my local gym and 7 years ago I discovered CrossFit which I love too, although over the past few years I’ve had a love/hate relationship with it as it is equally mentally challenging as it is physically. And more recently I’ve taken a shine to open/cold water swimming too.
During the UK lockdown of 2020, I really enjoyed exercising at home, I have a few weights and used what I had to hand as well as the local area to run around and got into a great routine and by mid Aug 2020 I was in great shape and felt amazing. Since then something has gone awry as I’ve completely lost all motivation to exercise which is totally unlike me as I love it.
I know it will come back at some point, just not sure when! I am hoping soon as I feel like the clock is really ticking now as I move to the half way point of my 365 transformation challenge. I’ve learnt over the many years I’ve been actively doing personal development that barrating myself for not doing exercise isn’t helpful so I will be gentle with myself and just allow this period of inactivity to happen and just accept it (as hard as it is to do that as I know I will definitely feel better being active but I simply won’t force myself – there is a time when I do force myself to exercise, this isn’t one of those times).
This lack of motivation is playing on my mind a lot at the moment so will probably speak to someone about it to see if I can shift the thoughts away as I really don’t know what is stopping me!