I find it fascinating how your feelings/mood changes so vastly each day, yesterday I was full of excitement, yet today I’ve felt quite weary. The last few nights’ sleep has been disturbed, when I wake up the bed covers are all over the place and I feel like I’ve moved around so much in the night. I’ve been sleeping longer as well as feel like my body is crying out for sleep/rest.
Not sure if this is to do with the shorter days/colder weather or just the combination of this and all the stress of the last couple of years that finally my mind is at its limit. Physically I don’t feel tired as I’ve not exercised consistently for weeks but mentally I’m done in.
One thing for sure next year I need to find a way of switching off, this is something I don’t seem able to do very well. In fact, the only two places that I can switch off is when I’m swimming in a very cold lake or doing high-intensity exercise as both involve me being completely present in the moment for a number of reasons yet right now I’m not interested in doing either. I know my motivation will come back, can’t say when but that’s ok as it will I know for sure as it always has and then I get into a proper groove with it.
So for now, I know I just need to ride out these feelings and let them do their thing.