Quite a rollercoaster of a day and I am completely spent…
So where do I start really?
My car is broken again, the new to me car that I literally only got five or six weeks ago and yes they’ve been tears, questioning why this is happened to me again and probably doesn’t help that I’m really tired.
It always feels like as soon as I get things on track something else bam comes and hits me in the arse so to speak, car needs fixing obviously, yes it will be covered under warranty it’s quite new but I’m without any transport.
I live in a place where you can’t really get anywhere without the car so tomorrow I plan to go into town for lunch with a friend and use bus but as soon as I get home tomorrow night unless I get a lift somewhere I can’t go anywhere other than my estate as we don’t have buses on a Sunday and that’s not a big issue at all because I don’t mind being at home but it just feels so restrictive limiting, and frustrating and annoying I just lost for words it is just so fucking bad luck and then to top it all I dropped a bottle of wine that I just bought smashed all over the pavement so had to go by another bottle of wine.
I don’t want to be upset about this as these are first world problems and there’s so many other stuff going on especially today where people have lost their lives or lost a loved one.
I just want a hug or a cuddle and someone who loves me, this is where being single really sucks, yet I don’t feel ready to embrace dating or trying to find someone to love me.