Wow, two months into this transformation and don’t feel like anything has really changed. Today has been about work, work and work!
Still got that deflated feeling I had yesterday and to add to it I’m feeling anxious about next week when I start face to face lectures with students at the uni.
Today I feel like I’m never (and I know never is a strong word) to find a way of finding balance in my life where I can earn enough money to pay the bills, develop myself and have a life! I feel like I’m so weighed down by the burden of life right now that I can’t see a way through it to make this transformation a reality. I know I make excuse after excuse and allow my reality to be clouded by tiredness & worry.
When I’m up I’m up and when I’m down I’m down, just can’t seem to find a happy medium.
This weekend I was planning on working on the business but due to my lack of planning and putting stuff off, I’ll be mainly doing work for my lectures next week.