My brain has a lot to answer for at the moment! Today I had loads to get done but my brain had other ideas… pulling apart my thoughts, finding the negatives and screaming them from the rooftops!! Making me 2nd guess everything I tried to do.
It started as soon as I got up, whether this is a response to my parents staying I don’t know but I’m seeing my world/life from a very critical place today.
I went to the gym and felt decidedly old! I’m not old in any way, shape or form but sometimes the gym has that effect on me, this is probably mainly to do with the fact that I tend to work out with people who are at least 10 years younger than me which in some ways is awesome as it’s a really motivator, however, on days like today I’m reminded I am older than them and right now my body isn’t capable of doing the things they can do.
I know that this is ok and focusing on just moving my body and enjoying that movement is what keeps me going back even if I find it frustrating.
I love the complexity of our minds and their vast capabilities but also hate the fact that at times like today, they are a never ending prison sentence you can’t escape from.
I’m in bed now so will read my 10 pages of a personal development book and will pick one that’s overtly positive to try to turn my mind around.
Tomorrow is another day…