Today started well, as it’s a rest day from the gym I tend to have a slightly slower morning which is nice in some ways but in another way I tend not to be as productive on a Tuesday and yes I could replicate the same routine I have the other days but it often feels like my body is needing the slowness but my mind doesn’t like it.
Other than the slower start I’ve had an ok day, a good meeting this morning with an organisation that I might collaborate with and cracked on with some other work as I have a couple of deadlines looming.
For most of the day I’ve have a sense of unease, not sure why, perhaps it’s the effect of the recent full moon and possibly the equinox of moving towards more night than day. Or the fact that today I noticed that there are only 101 days left of 2021 and feel like this year has come and gone without much progress for me in my life and doing this transformation has heightened the lack of progress somewhat which is good in some respect as awareness usually drives change and growth.
So this evening, I’ve turned off my phone and come upstairs to my little box room which is full of books and I’ve made the bed into a bit of a day bed where I can sit and work, last week a bed desk which is working exactly as I imagined.
I’ve got some gentle music in the background and once I finish writing this blog post I’m going to do some journaling to explore what feelings are lurking close the surface of my brain in a hope of some release so that tomorrow I can focus on what I need to get done to make more progress than I have in the last 50 odd days of doing this transformation. I might set myself a 100 day challenge to give me more focus & determination as I think my brain works better when there are tighter deadlines and perhaps 365 is just too big a number for my brain to comprehend.