Today started off ok, I skipped an early workout to do some work before I headed to a clients for the day, I was reluctant to cancel the gym session seeing how well I did last week of fitting them in around the business, however, I got back later than I thought I would last night from visiting friends so didn’t got as much prep done as I would of liked and felt this morning I would have been rushing around too much and end up being late for both the gym and my client! To make up for missing the gym today, I’ve booked in for a session tomorrow, Tuesday is usually my rest day but I want to keep up the momentum I achieved last week.
Again I have over two hours in the car driving and thinking!! Even with what happened in the last 18 months, I’ve not done this much driving in a quite a long time, as much as I wouldn’t want to do it everyday (did that 20 years ago for a couple of years & it was tough going) I am really enjoying getting out and about.
This morning I was singing along to the radio, laughing with the presenter and everything felt good.
This evening was completely different, nothing had changed apart from a busy and intense day with a client, in fact is was a great day and we got lots done but I had an overwhelming sense of sadness not sure if this is tiredness, hormones or imposter syndrome rearing it’s head but soon after I got home the tears flowed.
As I get older I know that allowing your emotions to flow is a good thing especially tears as this release can be really healing and there is no shame in crying and letting it out.
When I get a chance (I never get a chance, or the truth be told I don’t make time to get a chance!) I will sit quietly in the coming days and explore what’s going on right now as in all honestly things seem to be going well and have no real reason for this sadness!